trouble again..

Halo.. I'm here again.. Long time didn't update my blog.. Just updated when a got a trouble. The same as the other blog that I write..yup.. Now I'm having a trouble.. Maybe such a big trouble, again and again with my LOVELY sister. Tired and tired and tired. I agree that my attitude was change become more angrier than before,easily got mad or this as usual (hahaha) still can laugh. I don't know what am I supposed to say. just being scolded by my FAtHER because I scream or something that was not polite thing. But this I make for the first time. Didn't eat at all..hahaha now I just waiting to sleep the other activities I was doing after I cry was blogging as usual and also hear a music as usual to "avril lavigne-i wish you were here" with thinking of wc(my boy),he already fall asleep without knowing that I got a trouble and I cry and I was ALONE. But never mind I can handle it. It's just piece of cake just like the song " I can be strong~ " with a knife on my hand. It looks that I was so scary. I am not doing anything with that knife and not being danger to other. Just put it on my hand and slice it..haha. Thinking again something that was impossible. My granpa..wake up winnie.he already pass away..he will not at your side anymore,he will not help you anymore.. Now you are alone.wake up winnie. You can handle it. Didn't imagine that my sister would be like that.just because about money that I borrowed and I forget to paid her. Seems like I am a stranger. Ok I fault of being forgotten to paid you back. I don't care anymore what did you said me. I was bad sister for you or whatever it is. I don't care anymore. I just really want my life goes straight with no trouble handling me. It's okay if my life was flat as long as I got no trouble. Because of trouble it makes me realize that I was alone. It much more hurt than all of u got trouble to me. I don't want to realize myself that I was alone. Knowing that everybody was not good to me.. ALL THE PEOPLE no exception..