you're always right.

What's wrong with this. Having no time together makes us separates. And I really confuse of what things that I done. It seems that I never be the right one. When I say something that you didn't like you said that it's wrong and when you say something that I didn't like it I never say to you that you was wrong and you don't even know that I don't like it. You just do as you are no matter I like it or not because you don't know. And I never can do as I like because you say or mad to me that what I'm saying was wrong. Maybe it's may fault because I don't say it to you that I don't like that thing. But I wish that you can know it even I didn't say it.. you have ever mad to me because I said that it was boring that we always chat like this and you mad to me that "even that I am bored too I never said that "I'm bored chatting" and I say sorry. But when you suddenly didn't chat to me and I asked you why you didn't chat you said that I don't know what should I say to you. So we should have a break first. I said oke. But you know I were really upset that why if you wanted to have a break why didn't you say to me until I asked,the second upset is you can say to me have a break that you don't know what to say why I can't say bored because this chat was just like that. I think that bored is just the same meaning as a break. If I have a subject to said at the chat you ignore it and you just easily said that you forget it or you don't know. and the important that you keep saying me that I just answering you and I never give you a question and you say that you are like an interview to me that I just answering you. but you know when I tried to ask you,you seems like ignoring my question and say you forget or you don't know. I just tried the best for you. But pliss that don't make me feel something bad at this relationship..

screw it up..

Having such a ldr is not a good choice for me as I can see from the past that ldr made me down and shock that made me know ldr will not good for me..but now why I choose ldr again?? Because In my opinion I thought that he would be different with the past. So I choose it. Although I know the consequence is so hard for me.. I give one opportunity to see it will works or not.. If not I will never choose this ldr again..
I know he was a good guy but in the good things it's always have the bad things too. I don't say that he was bad.. Just wondering that why all the things that I did never be a right things for him. He kept saying to me that things was not good. And I listen to him and I tried as possible as I can change it and be the perfect girl for him. But is that so much things that I should change. It's tired to change so many things suddenly. Keep wondering that when will I be a fercet girl for him until I didn't change anything.. maybe it will be long time.
Didn't see each other for a long time it will make a word "miss" but I still can handle that word.. You must know that in ten girls there's just only "one" that choose the ldr.. So you must know what condition I have now.. I know that I can't be selfish that it's hard for you too.. You didn't choose for this situation.. But I just hope for you to be really"""kind to me..maybe sometimes I would be childish but you must be like a brother to handle my childish,don't keep comment me the bad things I was tired.it's okay for you to comment me but not recently, to believe me 100% I will also believe you, the important is don't snapped me even for one time,and don't ever say "I didn't receive what it is you" I HATED it when you say this.because if I didn't accept what it is you,from the first time I won't accept you to be my boyfriend. Maybe all I write it all kinda selfish just thinking of myself. But all of this just my opinion that I need to share. If you can be all of this is good but if you can't don't force yourself to be. I can accept the way you are.don't be bothering with this thing.this just happen for a moment.. "Longlasting"*amin*